New Year....Old Secrets

So for the first blog of 2010 I am happy to to confide in you, my new friend. 2009 was a tough year, not only because of the economic crisis, but because I told more lies and had more secrets than ever before....things I wasn't even able to share with my closest friends.

Let me give you a little history so you can understand how I got here and why I am happy to be single...

One year ago I broke up with my long term boyfriend of 5 years. I loved him and was heart broken, even though I had cheated on him only months before.....so as you do when heart broken, I turned to the bottle. Actually it was more like SEVERAL bottles.

I lost my job because of the recession, but I was too drunk and heart broken to care. And that's when the lying started. I didn't tell anyone I was unemployed, I pretended all was ok....as I slumped further and further in to an alcohol fuelled depression.

I didn't leave my apartment, unless it was to make a trip to the 'hole in the wall' to stock up. I didn't get dressed most days, ordered take away when I was hungry and asked neighbours to pick a few things up from the supermarket when they could....I was too busy at work to do it myself....or so I said

I didn't step outside my house for 4 weeks....I had put on 5 kg.....was bloated, miserable, unemployed and eternally unhappy.

Then something clicked....I was 'cured' My heart didn't hurt....I wanted to re-enter the world...but this time i was going to enter it on MY terms....I was going to live my life the way I wanted to live it....and i haven't looked back...